Self Esteem

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
Now I know I'm being used
That's okay man 'cause I like the abuse
I know she playing with me
That's okay 'cause I've got no self esteem
We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All these rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so
When she's saying that she wants only me
Than I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can stand
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care Right?
Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when she ready to go
I may be dumb But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem
When she's saying that she wants only me
Than I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can stand
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care Right?