My Life In Two

my life in two - ice nine kills
am i just holding onto memories,
the perfect pieces of my past?
i never thought i'd be the one to
say that dreams don't always last
i've screamed my heart out,
given everything
i split my life in two
and i don't regret anything
if i can see the damages by now
can you hear the sound?
is it time, or just the voice
inside my mind that says -
"don't throw your life away
reaching for yesterday"?
i only promise i'm not giving up today
and when my mind starts pulling away
my heart will have
the fight to make it
i'll turn my back on better days
i know my pride can take it
i've sacrificed half of my life
i hear it in every line i write -
that a part of me
i lost along the way
i'll never get back again
i've screamed my heart out,
given everything
i split my life in two
and i don't regret anything
if i can see the damages by now
can you hear the sound?
is it time, or just the voice
inside my mind that says -
"don't throw your life
away reaching for yesterday"?
i only promise i'm not giving up today
and when my hope stops leading the way
it might be too late
to make it out
and when jealousy
will be all i breathe
who am i to play the martyr?
my head will bow in shame
when my heart stops leading the way
who am i to play the martyr?
i'm the one to blame
when my heart stops leading the way
who am i to play the martyr?
if i can see the damages by now
can you hear the sound and walk away?
"don't throw your life away
reaching for yesterday"?
i only promise i'm not giving up today