When the Fever Broke

I wish I could be your last goodbye
I wish I was your man
But I'm not, not even close to not
Not even close to might have been
I guess I'll keep disappointing you
I guess I'll miss the mark again
I guess I'm sorry
I have this tombstone quality
I wish that you could see me here
I wish that you could feel me here
I don't want to be the only one to stay
Look what you've said and done for
No one in the world has a voice that
Hear what you've said and done to me
This morning when the fever broke
I closed my eyes and laughed
Thinking I can't go home again
I can't go home again
I know I'm not what I used to be
This is life, just keeps on chasing us
Until it catches you, you're dead
They say I'm not right every god damn
That's why I keep it to myself
That's why I'm sorry
I have this tombstone quality
I know you'll never see me here
I know you'll never feel me here
I don't want to be the only one to stay
Look what you've said and done for
No one in the world has a voice that
Hear what you've said and done to me
Tomorrow when the fever breaks
I'll close my eyes and laugh
I can't go home again
I can't go home again
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go home