Now in these cynical times stereotypical mind's
Got me falling from my pinnacle the minute I climb
Now these subliminal thoughts got individuals blind
I'm trying to look beyond the lies just to see what I'll find
I'm like a flower in a cave another hour in a maze
And I'll cower to the power of my criminal ways
The sun is shining but I'm catching minimal rays
It's time for me to bloom out of this childish phase
My life is like a battle that I'll probably never win
Cause I keep thinking big and risking everything
Life's a challenge and I wonder if I'll ever find the balance
Mixed emotions and confusion topped off with many talents
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change
Can I change? Will I change?
Or am I always gonna be the same?
I blame the world for making me such a freak
But the world wants to blame it on me
(my life is twisted)
My fingers pointing in the mirror I'm the one now
I see my shadow in the sundial
Am I really out of change? Put my freedom in a cage
Slow Down...man I got a son now
Theres nothing new they all said it
And I know it but I had to go through it myself, I'm hard headed
THat's the only way I'll learn,
Get caught in the fire theres no escaping the burn
And it burns, change this. change that, change is full of lies
I remain the same cat wear a good disguise
Living life looking through my third bling crooked eye
So if I change I'd be changing for the worst wouldn't I?
I wanna run, but if I run I'm only running from myself
Would it be easier if I was someone else?
I'm like a child playing qith matches thats never been burned
Relearning all the lessons that I've already learned
On a highway to a destination I've earned
So many exits but I've never bothered to turn
I'm like a piece of sharred glass on a frame of a window
That was broken by the bricks of pain
Sometimes I feel just like the devil's guinea pig
He's watching me just to see how deep I can dig
I admit I'm fucked up and got a lot to learn
So now I'm dancing in the ashes of the bridge I've burned
